We had quite a day yesterday. I was looking forward to Lily getting back to school and getting back on a schedule (it seems really hard to keep anything consistant these days for some odd reason between my husband's work hours and the kids being sick.) but when Lily woke up crying with a fever I knew that was not happening. Then Little Noah had been up all the night before with a fever of his own and Wesley woke up and had the accidents of all accidents. I will spare you the pleasant details LOL. So after getting them all bathed and back in bed I figured it was going to be a long day around here. As it turns out the kids slept a good part of the day and I did even less then usual of course besides waiting on my poor babies hand and foot and worrying myself sick. Now its almost 5:30 a.m here on Wednesday. Wes is at work, Lily is in her bed sleeping with her t.v WAY to loud and both boys are in my bed.
I have been letting Noah co sleep again quite a bit. I think with the baby coming in a couple of months and now him being sick I Just really want him close to me. I am realising that he is just not a baby anymore and its making me kind of sad. Only natural I figure, they grow up right? But when I look him I admit I do still see a baby and I know the moment Sophia is home from the hospital the comparison is going to be tough to swallow. It always is for me for some reason. I remeber the first week we had Noah I would just look at Wesley and cry. He was HUGE all of a sudden and it was a crazy reminder that they will not stay little or ours forever. Of course a big part of me realises they are never truly competely ours to begin with. In my heart I believe their time with us in our homes are a stepping stone and a blessing from God. In my eyes we are all truly his. Its my job to provide care and nurturing for as long as they need it (God help me if thats 40 huh LOL) and then motherhood and love for as long as I live. But never the less I do realise at some point I will have to let go. Anyhow rambling. Did I mention it was almost 5:30 am LOL.
Project 365 is going really well for me. I feel like I am finally starting to "get it" and my photography is growing as a result. I am enjoying photographing my kids a lot more now that I know what I am doing. I also admit that all the attention and kind words in the community has been very uplifting and made me feel wonderful. Its nice that we all can stand on each other's shoulders. I can't even begin to say how much I feel like I have grown as an artist and a person since I have been around all the amazing women in the digital scrapbooking community. Of course once you start making friends internationally and are exposed to so many amazing cultures you can not help but become a more well rounded individual.
Anyhow Noah is awake now and on my lap so my time has just become very limited LOL. Here is a few 365 out takes have you for the day. My 3 pitiful babies lol!
Have a wonderful day!
9 months ago